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"Now this is a story all about how..." it's been 35 hours and the long anticipated Cyberpunk video is exactly 57% rendered. Woe is me! In another day and a half, I may be able to publish the first version... but the one without music will ta...
2018-09-15 23:08:09 +0000 UTC View Post
I'm happy to see you liked my stone massage video so much! It makes me want to make more spa videos. I don't think I'll ever stop making spa videos. Spa ASMR is always a winner. If you have ideas for what kind of treatments you would like that I have...
2018-09-11 22:46:29 +0000 UTC View Post
Now that the new camera is "broken in", I'm excited to see how it performs in the notorious blue lighting of the Cyberpunk bar. I want to reshoot the first part tonight (I just consider the accidentally deleted footage as "rehearsal") and I've been t...
2018-09-10 17:35:17 +0000 UTC View Post
"Share what's new in your world." ... uhhhh, this?
I finally finished the first video ever filmed (and published) with my new Sony α7s - It took me a while to film and edit all the parts and as you are probably very clearly able to tell, the...
2018-09-09 02:18:40 +0000 UTC View Post
May I introduce the new and improved video quality... Well, almost. I'm still working on the configuration. But here's some of what you can expect for the future of [Esc] reality.
This video is just an example (as in I won't edit and publish it b/c...
2018-09-03 22:53:44 +0000 UTC View Post
Thanks for making me smile ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) inappropriate emoji to hide embarrassment
2018-08-31 21:51:02 +0000 UTC View Post
Look, I still exist!
I'm sorry, I feel like such a failure. There's no conceivable way I can finish the cyberpunk video this month. It'll likely come out within like a week, though. I'm trying and trying but progress is so slow. I made it to the co...
2018-08-31 00:14:25 +0000 UTC View Post
Thank you guys for tuning in! Dirty Flirty Fran is gonna crawl back in bed to give her dying uterus a comfortable journey to the otherworld.
2018-08-25 14:12:03 +0000 UTC View PostSepember is coming on so let's talk about what's coming this fall.
This is what's coming this fall.
My dream of creating top ...
I've been taking valerian root and I feel nothing. Nothing but restlessness. So since Jack is getting up in about an hour anyway, I decided to use that time to answer some of your lovely questions this month! By some I mean all of them. I'm gonna ans...
2018-08-21 14:02:41 +0000 UTC View Post
This, uhh... Is not your typical lullaby? But for those who missed my singing, I am performing - ever so softly and breathy - in order: Anesthesia (Type O Negative), Green Man (Type O Negative), Burn (The Cure), Tattooed In Reverse (Marilyn Manson), ...
2018-08-20 17:50:49 +0000 UTC View Post
Dying in a hole.
This is a glimpse into an aspect of my life that no one sees. The thing I could never get through to anyone.
The room is dim. I've spent the past 17 hours in darkness, sleeping on and off. I woke up once at 2P...
This month, you wanted to hear what I think about all your signs. Please don't hold it against me if I don't have a lot of nice things to say about your sign (Virgo). I don't discriminate against anyone based on their sign and I'm always open to lett...
2018-08-14 21:34:31 +0000 UTC View Post
Just your friendly bonus content spam for my lovely patrons =D Here's your highest voted video from July as a HQ mp3 download! It only took me searching through 10 different converters to find one that doesn't bitch about ad block lol. Have fun with ...
2018-08-12 23:53:25 +0000 UTC View Post
It is my pleasure to give you this soothing, balancing, tingly treatment of unparalleled relaxation. If I sound confident that you will enjoy this one, it's because I am. I'm quality checking it right now and finding it very calming. The slow, soft m...
2018-08-07 22:56:11 +0000 UTC View Post
So I ordered a bunch of skirts to try on. Spoiler alert, none of them fit. But I got some amazing fabric sounds, crinkling and more out of it. It honestly took more time to clear the floor space to be able to record in my livingroom than to make the ...
2018-08-05 17:20:21 +0000 UTC View Post
Before there was a livestream, there was a prototype of a mixology video. I ended up hating the fuck out of it because of the setting, lacking ingredients and noise. This one is still noisy, of course I edited to make it not overwhelming - and hated ...
2018-08-02 21:26:18 +0000 UTC View PostI should have specified that "life's great questions" was a joke lol. Regardless, let's roll out your deep and meaningful questions this beautifully muted Sunday afternoon with my fresh iced coffee while I'm also bleeding dry from my uterus. Fun!
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2018-07-29 19:36:32 +0000 UTC View Post
As I've hinted on a little bit, I've spent the past week in recovery from a mental breakdown. Nothing acutely outwardly awful happened, I'm just weak and can't handle stress - at all. Not doing much of anything ended up being surprising...
2018-07-27 20:11:56 +0000 UTC View Post
The drinks we made:
Cookie Cloud
1/4 cup Baileys
1 tsp chocolate chip cookie syrup
1 tbsp brown rum
1/2 tbsp cacao&hazelnut liqueur
1/4 cup milk
Shake with ice & serve
Virgin Blood
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You wanted to see me going about my day being a real person and I tried my best to capture a more or less average day. That being said, I feel fucking raw<...
2018-07-20 15:14:16 +0000 UTC View Post
You've got me figured out, haven't you? You know that if you can get multiple videos in a tie, you get multiple downloads. I have underestimated how fast you sneaky kitties learn! There you go, your highest voted videos as an mp3 download:
For anyone who has ever taken a blade to their own body.
I've been clean for at least 7 months. I've fought the urge to self-harm countless times since the last time, which I don't remember exactly when it was - but Jack says...
2018-07-16 15:29:45 +0000 UTC View Post
"How's your next thing coming?" - Always such appropriate suggestions, Patreon. This photo is from an attempted outdoor shoot that I had to toss cause people. I was smart enough to shoot the thumbnails first this time so at least I have a pretty pict...
2018-07-15 18:50:17 +0000 UTC View Post![Caring Friend Explains [ASMR]](https://img5.illustratefans.com/storage/7/wx/ij/102843-019e8388-bcdb-769a-a6e0-806be4932fd5.jpg)
I have a dream... No, that's literally how this beast of a video came about, guys, I dreamt about doing this and thought it was so funny and original, couldn't contain my amusement, that I just had to do it. Hang out with me for what...
2018-07-12 15:55:01 +0000 UTC View Post
Today I made some progress with the rewards. I had errands in the morning and afterwards had my carer take me to a pet supply store to keep my end of the deal. Thanks to your awesomeness and generosity, I was able to donate 12kg adult cat kibble, ...
2018-07-09 16:00:58 +0000 UTC View Post
Edit: I made some little changes to the video. I tried to up the brightness just during some parts where I'm showing off the clothing in [this version]. Let me know...
2018-07-07 02:01:00 +0000 UTC View Post
"Tell your patrons what you're working on." - How did you know that's what I was going to start with?!
June, the month of painful medical procedures, I'm so glad you are gone. I'm more than ready to just not be in pain any...
2018-07-04 16:56:35 +0000 UTC View Post
It's been a long month and even though for someone slow like me, a month can never be long enough... I am not unhappy with how things have turned out. I managed to meet my minimum quota while still getting very unpleasant real life things over with a...
2018-06-30 16:26:20 +0000 UTC View Post
Green theme.
Lately I'm just really feeling the color. It's in the background of the new video I have rendering for you right now. It's on my face in the stalled Libra sex signs reading that I'm still thinking about. It's the color of the syringe t...
2018-06-27 16:36:17 +0000 UTC View Post