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Such a Fancy ASMR Try-on Haul!

Ok... I did a thing. I did not mean to do the thing. But had I not done the thing, I could not honestly say this video was worth my time. I didn't want this to be yet another EMP Try-on haul, even though that's precisely what it is. So I did...

⛥November Q&A⛥

The time has come... to answer your questions of the month. I've been struggling the past two weeks with either really bad mental PMS or the onset of seasonal depression and this is the easiest thing I can probably motivate myself to do while I wait ...

⛥November Livechat⛥

5 hours, a bag of chips and burnt vegetables later... I'm reasonably sober now. Sober enough to be embarrassed by drunk Ally. Thank you all for the great time! 

50 More Facts About Me

In the set of Judge Dredd Haircut cause I couldn't be bothered to make a different set. Sorry if some of these are duplicates. I really can't remember which ones I already said cause I've said it all to myself too many times. 

Got questions? M...

god i hate people

I hope you're all staying safe from the cold, southern hemisphere excluded. 

Winter has definitely made a grand entrance here with a little snowfall and freezing cold wind. I've been going on walks purely so I don't have to l...

Judge Dredd Haircut - Outtakes

No comment cause I'm not feeling well today. Enjoy

Judge Dredd Haircut

The story: You gathered the courage to ask out your crush whom you see around the building every now and again. She's perfect - she's everything you've ever asked for... And you really want to leave a good impression. You planned out...

Soothing Escape - Spa Soundscape

Extended version now added. Fall asleep to over an hour of white noise for those of us with stubborn insomnia *raises hand*

IT'S BOKEH...

why am I loved only when I'm gone?

This set of photos I'm sharing in my various "Behind The Scenes" but-really-I -just-feel-chatty posts is my personal tribute to autumn. Even with the most amazing cameras, it's not possible to capture exactly what your eyes see - so I work with filte...

new year, new me?

Ha, I tricked you into clicking on this post with this cliché four word sentence that you would see buzzing around in about two months time. But I just really wanted to share some interesting observations since the start of the Pagan n...

⛥November Download⛥

No need to worry, you didn't miss the poll. I decided to skip it because I only managed to make two videos in October so there isn't much of a choice. Instead, I want to start off the month by giving you 2/2 mp3 downloads. Hopefully this month goes b...

🍰 My Favorite Treats In Germany 🍰

I'm proud to present this delicious video that's nothing short of food porn. 

Do not take a shot for everytime I say something snobbish. 

Thank you for letting me entertain you by eating my favorite snacks for a month. I hope...

🎃 German Halloween Candy 🎃

Oh yes I did. 

I hope you like this 20 minute video all about Halloween in Germany and the candy we give out. What kind of special Halloween stuff do you have where you're from? Do you celebrate at all? We are stoked af for Halloween and the L...

Halloween Livechat

Thank you guys for taking the time to hang out! I'm glad you enjoyed the mix of spooks and triggers. Looking forward to the November Livechat!

will I ever be enough?

I hope you like this autumnal photo of our town's very own castle. 

One of the rarer shoots that I went on in broad daylight. History lives on and even though we may wish to return to simpler times, thinking that ...

⛥October Q&A⛥

Good morning. I usually wait until way at the end of the month to answer your questions, but I'm at this point in my cycle where all I want to do is sleep and anything that isn't candy has become virtually indigestible to me. So this is probably the ...

Healing and Immunization

Hey there. Based on the crystals you chose (second voted from last year cause I made a mistake) I created a healing video with a specific purpose. It worked out nicely because heliotrope (bloodstone) and amber have similar and complementary attribute...

Outtakes - SHIKI - Lucy

Enjoy. You'll probably have to pause to read some of the text. It's worth it. XD

SHIKI - Lucy

This is Lucy's gut-wrenching story about how she became a Shiki. Just one fate out of many. Immeasurable amounts of suffering have created the most gentle-mannered undead soul. Are Shiki more like us than we thought? All this is happening in a city w...

eyes in a still lake

The most highly flattering picture of me. 

Insomnia again today
I say I try to live my life
As fully as I can anyway
But has my avoidance led me astray?

Out of everything
That my brain tells me I should do
Stop ...

life and work update

An amusing (hopefully) insight into this side.

I have a lot to do but I feel like writing this post instead. Writing calms me (unless I'm being graded then it's a fucking nightmare.) I'm hoping to have a quiet morning, regaining my stren...

⛥October Download⛥

You voted and you're gonna get what you voted for! That's right, I didn't fuck up horribly for a change. Enjoy your HQ mp3 meditations!

videos take longer cause I'm ugly and unphotogenic

A new path.

I seem to be posting more video updates than actual videos. Sorry about that. 

I'm working on a new look for myself personally aswell as for the new video. The camera thinks I look like shit and I cry every time. It thinks ev...

Ally's Ideal Treat Day GONE WRONG

I did my best to show you how a treat day for me would look. I low key wish I could show you something more fun but I got the 3 pillars right at least: Massages, coffee, no cooking. I regret that I couldn't show you any tasty German cakes but I might...

Autumn Stillness Guided Meditation

So this monster of a video is finally done. It's not exactly a monster, but sticking with the Halloween theme... It's really a soothing and relaxing guided meditation that's autumn themed. Courtesy of my insomnia. 

The idea behind this meditat...

⛥September LiveChat⛥

Thank you for tuning in! It was so much fun

⛥September Q&A⛥

Thank you for posting your questions. I've been having a bit of a nothing-goes-right-everything-fails-miserably-life-wants-me-to-give-up-on-it episode this past week so I'm comfort eating with some fresh homemade cookies and -- *takes a big frustrate...

to be lovable

Lately I've been struggling with being compared to other artists. This really triggers my insecurities and I'm pretty heartbroken about it. I'm sure it hasn't escaped you how much work and time and energy I put into all my videos (and h...

how crystal healing videos came to be

This picture is from a recent treat day ... a failed one. "Treat days can fail?" - Why, yes, turns out they can. Idk guys, I had good intentions. But everything I did kinda went sidedways. It wasn't meant to be. I was forced out of my home b...

Cyberpunk Roleplay // Laser Tattoo Application

I'm as nervous as I am happy to finally publish this long requested video. I hope you enjoy this extra long journey into a world of tech and blue-cyan lights. Do let me know if everything is ok with the video because I'm not sure if the audio is out ...